dates with gina

happy thanksgiving!

2004-11-23T06:02:00.000-08:00

i'm going to my parent's house for the holidays and i won't be back until sunday. that probably means i won't be blogging too much until after i get back. (something about posting to this blog from my parent's pc just doesn't seem like a good idea. :-)

anyway, there's lots to tell when i get back so don't forget about me!

have a great holiday and i'll talk to you soon.

love ya!

gina

update

2004-11-22T06:21:00.000-08:00

hi everybody! sorry i haven't posted as much lately, but i haven't forgotten about all of you! things have just been so busy at work lately that i don't have much time to post these days. it will get better soon though, and that's good, because i have lots to tell both about peter and my boss.

i'll fill you in on all the details later, but in the meantime, i'll just say that things are going pretty well with peter. that's kind of freaking me out, because... well i'm exactly sure why. i've dated some really hot guys in the past and i've always found that they fell short in other departments and were usually a big disappoointment. but that's okay because... okay, this is going to sound really corny like something my mom would say, but you know what? looks really aren't everything. they're great for getting your attention, but after that?

like i said, most really hot guys have been boring to me. or arrogant. or had some other fatal flaw. on the other hand, i have dated some guys in the past that were... well maybe not so good-looking. but in some of those cases we really meshed. and in cases where we got along and the sex was good, i became really attracted to them. i mean really attracted! there are some guys from my past that i can still get hot thinking about and no other girl would understand! but once you really like a person, they become more attractive to you, and you don't even see the unattractive parts anymore. there was this one guy who wasn't really gq material, but for some reason i thought his shoulders were really sexy. i found that i focused on his shoulders almost exclusively. attraction is such a funny thing.

but anyway, peter so far seems very nice and fairly interesting and we get along great. i think the sex is going to be good too, but it's a little too early to tell. ;-) he's not perfect, but he's good. and he's gorgeous. something about that combination scares me a little. i would never end up with a guy just because of his looks. but what if peter is good but not great? what if i let his looks push me to settle for good instead of great?

anyway, it's way too early to be freaking out about all of this i guess. maybe he'll end up being great after all. or maybe he won't even be good. maybe he'll just be someone that i have some fun, hot times with for a while. i think at the end of the day that that, at least, is guaranteed. :-)

more later!

okay, am i weird?

2004-11-18T06:22:00.000-08:00

i'm not a lesbian or anything but sometimes i really just want to make out with a girl. i'm not really into girl-on-girl sex so much, but just kissing a pretty girl can be really nice. their lips are so soft and they smell good and i hate to say it, but girls are just better kissers. sorry guys. :-(

is it just me? anyone else know what i'm talking about?

date with peter

2004-11-15T08:27:00.000-08:00

all right, don't worry, i didn't forget to fill you guys in. ;)

peter picked me up after work friday night. he was taking me to an art opeining of a friend he knew. he showed up in his own car, and i was not prepared for that! i know having your own car isn't that big a deal, but in new york city, i'm not used to getting driven around by my dates. it's like my own personal taxi. :)

his car was small but nice (i don't know much about cars!) and he drove us to this place in the meat-packing district. it was pretty empty and easy to park down there. when we got to the place there was a small line to get in, but it moved pretty fast. it looked just like an old warehouse from the outside, but when we got in, there were lots of well-dressed people, live piano music, and lots of wine, champagne and cheese.

for a minute i felt like i might be underdressed and then i felt myself start to blush. then i kicked myself for being such a schoolgirl! god damn, what was it about this guy? he's only like 23, but he makes me feel like i'm in high school! i hate that! but then again i love it too. :)

anyway i soon felt better because i noticed that peter was hardly dressed up. he was wearing black jeans and a turtleneck sweater, but it looked so fucking good on him it was easy to forget he wasn't dressed to the nines. :)

they had work there by several different artists, and they were arranged in different "rooms" separated by those portable wall thingies. we walked around looking at the different paintings, and he kept putting his hand on my neck and rubbing. his hand felt soooooo warm, i kind of melted inside. i hated myself for being so giddy around him, but i just couldn't help it. damn, i was with the hottest guy there. but i couldn't think about it too much because then i would get nervous.

i'm not an expert on art or anything, but some of it was really nice. there was this one girl who did paintings on glass. there were several rooms devoted to her stuff. some of the rooms were dark, because she did this kind of fluourescent painting and some of the paintings had neon lights integrated into them.

we had wondered through several of these darkened rooms, and then we were in one by ourselves. he bent down to kiss me and i swear to god i thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest. i hoped he couldn't tell how much it was racing because i would be embarrassed.

then, after a long deep kiss, he started to pull away. this is the point where i could take a little bit of control. :)

i grabbed his head and pulled it back down into mine, our tongues swirling around in each other's mouths. he moaned slightly and i knew he was getting into it. i moved my body up close against his and pressed against him as close as i could. he grabbed my ass and continued to kiss me. at this point my heart was racing out of control. i was wearing a short black skirt made of thin stretchy material. i'm in there making out with him like crazy and i feel his hands go under my skirt, but from below. he's lifting my skirt a little, and i feel his hands on my ass, squeezing, rubbing, pulling me against him as our tongues continued their frenzied explorations.

my "lucky panties" i had worn are thongs, so his hands were on my bare ass cheeks, which were still cold from the wait in line outside. his hands on my bare naked ass felt so good i could have fucked him right then and there. i'm sure i would have too, had he not pulled away from me at last. i didn't want to let him go, but it was a good thing i did, because shortly afterwords this elderly couple had come into the room we were in to look at the art. i started giggling and he told me to "shh!" fuck, i was doing that "schoolgirl" thing again. he was going to think i was immature.

then after we left he took me to tavern on the green! i was really starting to feel underdressed then. :) but we had a great dinner, with more champage. i felt bad because he spent so much money on dinner. i knew he was fairly succesful as a model but i doubted he made that much money at it. i hoped he wasn't doing it just to impress me, although he didn't seem the type to try to make false impressions.

after dinner i'm a little bit tipsy and feeling like i'm in love because this guy is not only so nice but so fucking hot! after dinner we went for a quick walk in the park, but it wsa very cold so he got his car from the valet parking and drove me home.

when we pulled up in front of my building i looked up to our window and saw the light on, so i knew katie must have been there. the first thing i said was "my roommate's home," and i instantly regretted it because i think it made him more hesitant to come up. we made out for a while in his car, and then i invited him up but he said he'd better get home. it was after 11 by now. so i made out with him some more, hoping to change his mind.

"are you sure you won't come up?" i said. he smiled and said he'd like to, maybe next time.

"okay," i said. but i told him i had a great time and i wanted to give him a good-night present. before he could object and before i could change my mind, i leaned over and unzipped his pants. the street i live on is kind of a small, cut-through street, so there isn't too much through-traffic. also it was very dark, and we were both wearing black, so i just said "fuck it" and took him in my mouth right then and there.

god, he even tasted good. usually i do this to be nice to guys, but this was really turning me on. and he wasn't objecting or trying to tug me away, like chris did. this was a refreshing change of pace. i could tell he was really enjoying it by his sighs and little moans, and the encouraging motions of his hands on my head, neck and hair.

i sort of lose track of times in these situations so i'm not sure how long i was at it. i know i got so into it that i kind of forgot my surroundings, so i just hope no one walked by. then i was bobbing my head up and down, faster and faster, because i could tell he was getting close. i knew he was about to come, but i just kept him in my mouth, not letting him go, communicating to him that it was okay for him to let go. finally he did. he moaned a little, arched his back, and raised his butt off the seat, as he filled my mouth with several short, rapid bursts. i didn't let go of him until i was sure i had swallowed it all, and he was clean. finally, i removed him from my mouth, sat up, and smiled at him, brushing my hair out of my eyes.

"wow," he said. "that was really, really nice. when do i get to return the favor?"

i was glad he asked. "next time." i said. i blew him a kiss. i don't know yet if he's the kind of guy that doesn't like to be kissed after that. i told him good night, and got out of his car and went up to my room.

i'd say all in all it went pretty well. i'm already looking forward to our next date, when he can 'return the favor.' i couldn't stop thinking about it in my bed. i masturbated, thinking of him, until i was finally able to fall asleep.

tonight

2004-11-12T05:25:00.000-08:00

well, tonight's the date with peter! but it looks like it may rain, so that sucks. oh well. i'm kind of ashamed to admit this but i'm actually... nervous! i can't remember the last time i've been nervous on a date. i feel like i'm in high school or something. :-)

oh, and i think there may be more vibes from my boss. i still haven't found out his "family" situation yet for sure.

anyway, i'll keep you posted on everything later! wish me luck. :-)

peter

2004-11-11T06:14:00.000-08:00

okay, i've got a date tomorrow night. :-)

i met this guy named peter at the election party i told you about. i didn't say anything about him at first because i wasn't sure if i'd hear from him again or not. he got my number but i didn't know if he would call or not. he's absolutely fucking gorgeous so i didn't want to get my hopes up. then when i got sick for a few days i had almost written him off, but he called last night.

okay, i'm almost embarrassed to admit this but he's... a model. but he doesn't look exactly like most models i've known. he's thin but not too thin. and he's masculine enough not to look pasty. he's got curly, close-cropped black hair and the most amazing blue eyes. he was wearing a green turtle-neck sweater the night of the party and had a little bit of stubble on his face. you know the look. they try to make it look "casual" or "relaxed" and i'm not a guy, but i'm guessing it takes a fair amount of effort to acheive just the right amount of "stubble." :-) or maybe i'm thinking too much like a girl, but if he's a model, he must spend hours worrying about his appearance too, right? it would be nice for a change to have a boyfriend who can relate to that. ;-)

anyway, i hate to say it, but when i saw him at the party he was so beautiful i was sure he must be gay. oh well, i guess not. to be honest, i can't remember much about our conversation, because most of it happened after i was already drunk. i hope i didn't embarrass myself, but i guess i couldn't have been too bad, because he called me up. honestly, i was so surprised it took me a minute to realize who was calling me. anyway, i guess we'll be going out tomorrow. he's taking me to an art opening and dinner later. as always, i'll keep you posted. i'm wearing my "nice" panties, just in case. ;-) (i'm bad!)

my boss

2004-11-10T06:53:00.000-08:00

okay, i am definitely getting some kind of vibe from my boss. at first i thought i was imagining it but now i don't think so. i call him kyle, and he's one of the younger lawyers at the firm here, but he's still a little old for me. probably about 40 or maybe a little older. don't get me wrong, he still looks good. he plays racketball a lot and is in great shape. i admit i've caught myself checking out his ass sometimes when he comes into our office area.

but lately i've noticed he talks to me more. and when i'm asking him a question or something he'll put his hand on his shoulder or my hair or something. this has been happening a lot lately. never any more than that though, but i wonder if he will get bolder. i've never been with a guy that old before, but i wouldn't mind doing it. the thing is that i think he's married. i can't remember why i think that, but i do. he doesn't wear a ring and if he is married, he never ever talks about his wife or his family, at least around me. so maybe i'm wrong.

i just wonder why the sudden interest. this doesn't bother me except for one thing. what if he's discovered my blog?!?! i giuss that's pretty unlikely, but i do sometimes post from work, although i always try to make sure i shut everything down afterwards. well if he is reading this, i guess we'll find out soon enough. :-)

i hope not, though. i know i'm not a shy person but having my boss read all this would be a bit embarrassing.

maybe i'll try to ask around some of the other people whether kyle's married or not. but i just have to wait for the right opportunity to come up. i definitely don't want to sound like i'm interested.

question

2004-11-08T15:18:00.000-08:00

okay, here's another question. who's idea was it to make some condoms ribbed? also, why do guys buy them? i guess they must be doing it for us, which is sweet, but would someone please tell them we just don't like that?

i'm back!!

2004-11-08T10:22:00.000-08:00

sorry for the long silence, but here's the deal. i think i mentioned that i went to an election night party on tuesday night, right? well, i stayed out waaaaaay too late and i drank waaaaaay too much, and i had a hangover all the next day. then on thursday i still didn't feel very good and i finally realized it wasn't just a hangover. i was coming down with something. as a result the weekend was pretty much a loss. but it's monday and i feel much better now, except that i'm back at work (blah for me!)

so even though there hasn't really been any activity to report, i have been thinking. i'm feeling kind of guilty about something and i want some women's perspective here. i'm sure it's no surprise that i consider myself a feminist (sexually liberated and assertive and all that) but sometimes i worry that some of my sexual tastes are in conflict with that.

i've really lost patience with chris now, and that's a perfect illustration of what i mean. i don't mind making the first move, or seducing somebody, but at a certain point i want them to take over! in short, i kind of like it rough! now please don't get the wrong idea, because i'm not saying i like forced sex (it should always be concensual) but i do like it hard and fast. sometimes they tell me i'm like a guy that way. does this make me a bad feminist? i like it when the guy takes control, moves me around and sort of loses control himself. it kind of makes me feel sexy to know i can have that effect on a man. i don't like to be hurt of course, but i do like to be tossed around, gripped hard, even have my hair pulled a little and just get it fast and hard.

am i bad?

still alive!

2004-11-04T11:04:00.000-08:00

i'm still here. sorry for not posting more. things have been mostly boring and busy at work and yesterday i spent all day with a hangover after a loooong election night party. more to come soon. miss ya!

halloween with chris

2004-11-01T05:23:00.000-08:00

all right, last night was chris's final, final last chance... remember? problem is, i think whether he passed or not is a little ambiguous. why? cuz i did something stupid stupid stupid!

so all right, anyway, chris called and we met at this haunted house in the city. it was actually pretty scary and i think i probably left some claw marks on chris's arm. :-) anyway, i'd told chris to come over later and to plan to spend the night. pretty bold, huh? anyway i said that katie and her boyfriend matt were going to be there and the four of us were going to drink sangria and watch a horror movie marathon.

chris had to go home to get his stuff and when he came over he was carrying a small suitcase. i teased him about that, and told him he packs like a girl. :-) anyway, we had a few trick or treaters but not many, and then we ordered some mexican food and drank the sangria that katie had made. it was good but kind of strong. we watched jason, freddy, and then they put the exorcist on, which i'd never seen before. i hung with it for maybe an hour, but then it started freaking me out. it was almost midnight by then anyway, and since i have to work today, i though it was a good excuse to excuse ourselves, and chris and i retired to my bedroom. he left to go brush his teeth and stuff and then came back in the room, and he wasn't wearing his glasses.

by this time i had changed into my pink flannel pajamas, but the day was much warmer than i had expected, so i thought i might not need them. i didn't have to worry, because as soon as chris came in, he grabbed me and started kissing me like crazy. his tongue was all over the place, and his hand slipped down my pj bottoms to grab my ass. i was really surprised, and my heart started pounded, and i couldn't do anything but just kind of whimper. now we were finally getting somewhere! i thought my patience had paid off.

he laid me down on the bedspread (hello kitty) and i expected some more making out, or maybe he would unbutton my top. nope. he grabbed the waistband of my pants and pulled them down. i raised by butt off the bed to help. at this point i was so excited i was afraid i would mess up the bedspread, but i wasn't about to interrupt him at this point! he went down on me eagerly, and i just closed my eyes, and grabbed his short curly hair and went with it. i guess he was just paying me back. we'd never had sex, but i had got him off twice already.

usually this part ends too fast for me, but he kept at it. i could tell he was eager to please, but i knew he must want more, and i did too. i got up and undressed him and laid him down. i straddled him, and started licking him all over and kissing him deeply to let him know it was okay to kiss me after doing that to me. still kissing him, i reached behind me to grab his erection, and i stroked it a little, but it was unnecessary. he was hard as a rock. i stopped kissing him for a minute and reached to my bedside drawer to remove a condom, then i started to open it.

"no," he said, and grabbed my hand. "what?" i asked. he was quiet for a minute, and then just said, "wait." i didn't know what the hell that meant? wait for later tonight? wait for later this year? what the hell? i was really started to get frustrated now. things had been going so well.

i set the condom beside us on the bed, and moved down to take him into my mouth. he was long enough, but not very big around, so it was easy to take him in. he seemed to like it, but i didn't want to take a chance of him finishing too early. i just wanted to get him excited enough that he would quit being a dick! after a few minutes of that, he started bucking his hips, so i figured he was ready. i picked the condom back up, and started undoing the wrapper with my teeth, keeping eye contanct with him the whole time.

this time he didn't say anything but just grabbed my hand and removed the tiny foil package. i didn't even know what to say or argue. i just climbed on top of him and started making out again, and grinding myself against him. he was moaning and his eyes were closed, so i reached down between us, grabbed him, and guided him into me, condom or not. he and i were both so ready that it slid right in. he managed a small protest, but it was faint and half-hearted. i didn't come all this way to stop now.

i rode him like that for a few minutes, but his level of excitement was too much, and pretty soon he threw me off of him, and i knew he was ready to explode. i confess i was thinking of my hello kitty bedspread when i took him in my mouth again and finished him off there.

after that we slept together, naked. it was a warm night, and before i went to sleep i was trying to figure out what this meant. he was definitely making progress, but obviously had some real kind of hangup, and i just don't know if he's worth the trouble anymore. i never thought of him as long-term boyfriend material anyway, so what was i even doing with him? how much time had i already wasted?

not only that, but i knew what i had done tonight was stupid. not only was it not fair to him, but it was stupid stupid stupid to do that without protection. i had a minute of panic before i went to sleep, but then i talked myself down, telling myself that someone like chris, with his defenses as high as they are, is probably not a health risk. in fact, i had seriously begun to wonder if he had been a virgin before tonight. could that even be possible?

now i really don't know what to do. how many last chances does he get? am i going to have to "trick" him into sex with me from now on? arrrggghhhh!!

celebrities i'd like to make out with

2004-10-30T17:38:00.000-07:00

all right, so far this weekend has been pret-ty boring! in the interest of having something to post on this blog, i'll share the celebs i'd like to make out with today. please feel free to share your own list.

btw, this is an ever-changing list with me. it depends on my mood, the day of the week, and god knows what else. but here is today's list.

jude law
tiger woods
angelina jolie
derek jeter
kirsten dunst

none of these are new obsessions for me except for maybe kirsten. i saw her on tv today and just thought "damn!"

anyway, i'm seeing chris again soon tonight. i owed him one more chance. more later! ;-)

long week

2004-10-29T13:59:00.000-07:00

kyle is really dumping on me today. i'd thought i might get to sneak out early since it's friday, but it looks like i'll even have to work late. not the best day for it either. i think i stayed up too late last night, and drank a little too much too. and it doesn't look like it's going to get better anytime soon either. i got some pretty tight deadlines for the next two weeks. sigh.

well it looks like tonight is going to be pretty boring! probably catch a movie on cable on go to sleep. i don't know if katie's around tonight or not. sorry to be so boring on a weekend, but maybe tomorrow will be better. :-)

last night

2004-10-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

katie went out with me after all. here's a picture she took of me getting ready.

bitch. just kidding! actually since so many people have emailed wanting to see more pictures i've asked katie to take some of me around the house for this site. unfortunately we're going to have to keep it to a minimum because we can run out of band width very fast. justin who helps me with my computer issues (i haven't even told you about him yet) says that if it continues to be popular we might move it to its own place where it guess we can do whatever we want.

anyway katie and i went to the peculiar pub. it was fun. some guys bought us drinks but nothing really happened. then later we ended up at this table with these two guys, todd and i can't remember the other guy's name. anyway things are going pretty well and i sort of pair up with todd and katie with the other guy.

todd was pretty cute. tall, thin and had a shaved head, but it looked to me like he probably would be bald anyway if he didn't shave it even though he was only like twenty something. but he was funny and knew a lot about music because he had some kind of job in the music industry.

so we're talking with them for about an hour i guess and katie hasn't given me the signal that she wants to esacpe yet so i guess she's happy. i'm realizing now that if i want to go home with someone besides todd i have to decide soon and then figure out a way to get out of it. i think about it for a few minutes and i figured todd seems okay and he's a bird in the hand.

katie and i are having fuzzy navels and the guys are drinking beer. by this time i think we're all a little drunk. i can't remember whether todd or i had the idea to leave first, but when we left katie and her guy were still at the bar, so i have no idea what happened with them! i'll have to find out later.

it was colder than i though outside but the air helped to sober me up a little bit. todd lived in walking distance so we went back to his place. there was a nice bright full moon (hey did anybody see the eclipse the other night?).

his place was nice but not really well kept up. his bed was messy and looked like it had never been made but looked like it was clean enough. we got there and todd didn't waste any time getting us into the bedroom! we listened to some new music he had by this band he had been talking about and then he started kissing me on his bed. it was already about midnight and since i had to work today we couldn't waste too much time i guess. well we sure didn't. before i knew it he was on top of me giving it to me hard and steady. he seemed kind of focused on himself and it was pretty unimaginative, but i do kind of like it hard and fast so it was okay. i grabbed his butt and pulled him in closer to me.

he lasted longer than i thought he would. it wasn't too impressive but not bad. the cool thing was that after only about five minutes he was ready to go again. again he just kind of rolled on top of me and started hammering away. this time lasted a little longer and he sort of gradually slowed down. i don't really even know if he came or not, we just kind of eventually fell asleep. his cool, sweaty skin felt good next to me in the bed.

i woke up with a little bit of a headache. in the daylight i realized the room was a little dirtier than i'd remembered. todd woke up too and we got up and we talked for a while on his couch. i realized that he had never brushed his teeth either last night or this morning, and it kind of showed. ew.

anyway i said i'd better be leaving. all in all it wasn't bad but i don't think i'll be seeing him again. but anyway the dry spell is officially broken. ;-)

since i didn't come home last night i have no idea how katie made out. i guess i'll find out later.

tonight's the night

2004-10-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

it's a girls night out, and i'm not coming back empty-handed. ;-)

my roommate katie said she'd probably go out with me, but she'd have to see how she feels after work. if she doesn't, i'll have to scramble to find someone else, because i prefer not to go out alone.

i like going out with katie but sometimes i think she makes my job harder because she's so pretty. :-) i'm already getting emails from people asking if they can see a picture of katie. i'll work on it, but she's not as exhibitionist as i am i don't think. anyway, she's a few inches taller than me with perfectly straight, honey-colored hair. her boobs are smaller than mine but perfectly shaped and she has a cute bubble butt. ;-) no, i'm not a dyke but i do love beautiful women.

anyway, wish us luck. as always, i'll fill you in later!

tonight's date

2004-10-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

all right, i guess i'm an idiot.

like i said, tonight was the "last chance" date with chris. i wanted to get him worked up as possible for later on tonight. i wore a nice leather skirt, even though it was probably too short for the weather here, and a tight top (i wish i had better boobs!)

chris showed up at my place and katie wasn't there, so we fooled around a bit on the couch. so far so good, but we had to leave pretty soon, because our reservation was for 7:30. we took a cab to shelley's and i noticed that they had one of those round corner tables available so i asked our host if we could have it. at first he told us it was only for larger parties (life in new york!), but i asked nicely and finally persuaded him. ;) i think chris was a little embarrased, but we slid in behind the table, sitting side by side on this red vinyl seat, where we could look out over the restaurant.

we ordered oyster appetizers and he got steak and i got fish. about halfway through dinner i started stroking his thigh. at first i expected him to be nervous, but we were pretty well hidden so i guess he didn't mind. i kept this up on and off for several minutes, but slowly kept working my way up his thigh. when my hand finally touched his erection, i was shocked. the plan certainly seemed to be working! he was wearing dress pants, and they were pretty thin and i almost expected him to rip a big hole in the front.

i hadn't encountered any resistance so far, so i slowly began unzipping his pants. i really expected him to move my hand away now but he didn't. i was pretty cool about it, so i don't think he was too nervous. he wasn't talking much anymore and he was breathing shallower and faster. i got his zipper down only so far and no further, because my wrist was at an awkward angle. chris really surprised me then, because he reached down and finished unzipping his pants himself! I wasn't expecting this for sure, but i figured my plan must be working pretty well because he was obviously loosening up. his zipper was nylon, so it really didn't make any noise, but there was no one really that near us anyway.

i was getting hot myself by this time. he felt hot and hard in my hand, and he was so excited he was beginning to produce his own lube, so this was really easy. i rubbed the top of his head with my palm, in slow twisting motions. i didn't want to be too obvious here. i was happy now that my plan was working. the proble was, it was working too well. before i knew it, he came. he gave me no warning or anything! fortunately both our napkins were on our laps so cleanup wasn't that big a deal. it was kind of funny and exciting, but when he excused himself to go to the bathroom i realized i had really screwed up. the whole point was to get him hot, bothered and anxious. i figured the only way i'd have any luck at all with him would be if he was extremely horny tonight. so much for that!

damn! we're obviously both hot for each other but after all this time and despite my best efforts what had i got? two handjobs! i couldn't believe it, but i was disgusted at myself, not really him. the service was kind of slow, so by the time we left i made the excuse that tomorrow's a work day and i needed to go home and get some sleep. he didn't seem too upset but it's hard to tell with him sometimes.

sigh. i know tonight was chris's "last chance," but i fell like tonight wasn't his fault. i'll probably give him another chance. it seems only fair but i'll think about it.

anyway, in the meantime, i'm still going out to the bar tomorrow night after work. i need to do some prowling, and chris or no chris, this "dry spell" will have to end! a blog about someone's sex life isn't very good if no one's having sex!!

see how great this site is? i can use my blog as an excuse to get laid. ;-)

work sucks

2004-10-27T11:43:00.000-07:00

kyle is being a real jerk today. i can't wait to go home. i have a headache and i need to get my act together before i go out with chris tonight.

tonight is chris's last chance!!! i've got to end the dry spell. or else this blog will just be too boring! ;-)

dry spell?

2004-10-26T14:18:00.000-07:00

wouldn't you know it? i finally start a blog dedicated to my sex life and i haven't had sex in over a week. part of this is chris' fault of course. i don't know why i don't give up on him. anyway he left a message on my phone this afternoon and asked me to go to dinner with him at shelley's tomorrow night. i think i'll go and maybe try some different things. i don't want to repeat the same patterns.

anyway, sorry for the dry spell. if tomorrow doesn't work out (!) i'll just go to the bar Thursday night. i do that often enough on thursdays anyway, so don't worry, things will pick up soon! ;-)

questions questions questions

2004-10-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

still thinking about chris. i actually masturbated thinking about him before i went to sleep last night. he's not the type of guy i usually lust after, but having him sooooo close and but not getting inside his pants left me a little frustrated.

but he seems really into me and i'm pretty sure i could wear him down but i'm beginning to wonder if it's worth it. and why why why is he being so stubborn? i really want to know. i can tell he's horny, so what is this? some religious thing? some moral thing? what? argh!

mondays suck

2004-10-26T07:14:00.000-07:00

i wrote that headline before i realized it wasn't monday. feels like one though. my boss kyle just dumped another huge fucking stack of files for me to put into the computer and i'm only halfway through the one he gave me yesterday. argh! did i mention i hate my job?

second date with chris

2004-10-25T10:58:00.000-07:00

last night was my second date with chris. i met him at school (hunter college). he's an engineering student, so a little bit nerdy but still kinda hot. ;) he wears glasses and stuff but he's blond and has no idea how he could make girls ooze if he tried a little harder and had a little more confidence.

anyway he somehow managed to ask me out last week. i could tell he was nervous but i tried to make it easy for him and i guess it worked. anyway we went to see team america (which i loved btw) and had some dinner afterward. then i invited him back to my place. i could see the poor thing was nervous, he was almost shaking, but i tried to make him feel relaxed as possible.

we hung out in my room for a while and soon started making out. i practically had to give him an engraved invitation though, lol. turns out he's a great kisser ocne he gets started. he just needs a little loosening up. his mouth was dry at first because i think he was nervous but then he really got into it. he's slowly moved to where he's basically lying on me at this point and started to grind into me a bit. i'm surprised but not unhappy. i certainly did nothing to discourage him. i could tell he had quite a boner because he kept pushing it against me (he's in kahki's and i'm wearing jeans). i moaned a bit and suddenly though he just stopped and said he'd better go. i figured he was probably weirded out because katie (roommate) was home in the next room so i let it go.

last night after our dinner however, i made sure to tell him that katie was out so he would feel more comfortable. we came back and it was a repeat of before. he really starts dry humping me and then suddenly he says he has to stop. but he didn't leave this time. i asked him what was the matter and he just says he shouldn't. but soon we start to make out again and i look down and really feel sorry for the guy. there's a tiny little wet spot on the front of his pants.

i know he's going crazy but everytime things get to a certain level he just stops all of sudden. hell i'm frustrated so i know he must be. finally i just reach out and unzip his pants. he let me do it and i took him out. he was longer but thinner than i imagined. he let me do this. i stroked him slowly a few times and i whispered to him "why don't you let me help you out a little?" he seemed to enjoy this and had his eyes closed. after a few secs i leaned over and took him in my mouth. i heard him sigh and he didn't object and started stroking my hair so i figured he wanted it.

then after literally just about 10 seconds he pulls me head up and tells me to stop. but he doesn't zip his pants back up and he's still there all anxious and everything and then he starts kissing me again. i'm like what the f*ck already? anyway we're making out and i reach down between us and grab him and start stroking him. this he lets me do. finally when he's ready i get finish him off and clean him up with some kleenex from the night stand.

he smiled and said that was nice but then in just a few minutes he gets red and starts acting all embarrassed or something. ten minutes later he says he has to go and he's gone.

okay so i'm really confused now. it's like he wants it but he deosn't. what the hell? i'm beginning to wonder if he's super religious or something. anyway he said he'd call soon so....

if he does i'll go out with him again but if this keeps happening i'm just going to have to ask him what the hell is going on

more later

first post!

2004-10-25T10:53:00.000-07:00

ok, so my roommate finally talked me into starting this site. truth is i think she was just getting sick of having to listen to me go on about all the details of my dating/sex life, lol. she wanted me to vent to someone else for a change. ;)

problem is that you readers have already missed tons of good stuff. i had to decide whether to try to bring you up to date or just start with right now. i've decided i'll just start with now. even i don't have dates every night, so maybe when there's down time i can fill you in on a little history. but for now...

i guess let's start with chris. but that probably deserves a new post.